NARCONON REFLECTION
Here is a realization – one of many today from a Narconon drug treatment student, who had abused alcohol. It is written with the hope that others will know that there is hope for them also.
“Today I had a realization that the lack of a relationship with my children has been an important factor in my relapsing. It has become a catch 22 for me. When I think of my children, I become sad and angry with myself and my life. I don’t deal with pain very well so I want to kill the pain. Drinking did that for me. The cycle begins and I become more distant from my children because I can’t be with them if I am drinking. This makes me want to drink more. The other day when I got news that the company that I work for was being shut down, I was very sad and angry. I realized that I didn’t think about drinking until someone else said something. This is a big change for me and I feel happy that my coping skills have changed.
After having realized this, I also later realized that shame has been a controlling factor in my life. I have held on to many things from my past that prevents me from growing as a person. On the outside I can appear happy and confident. I never want people to see what is actually going on, on the inside. I realized that holding on to the past serves no purpose in my life other than to keep me drunk.
The past cannot be changed and I don’t have to continue the life path that I had been on. I deserve to be loved and respected. It will take time to earn trust and rebuild relationships with my children. I don’t need to hold on to or hide the demons I have on the inside. I can release them and live my life as I have always wanted to.
I can be a good father, boyfriend/husband, employee, friend and son. I have many great qualities and talents. I can get and reach goals. I can be in and contribute to strong positive relationships. I don’t have to live in shame and I am not responsible for every problem that comes up in life. I can work through issues and with the people I love to make their lives and mine better. “
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